I’ve been praying about things, and for things. I’ve been asking for the usual gifts and graces – conversion of my family members, random people I met online, the world, the Church; for virtues, especially patience, gentleness, and for inner peace „that transcends all understanding”, because these are especially need as a mother of five young children that are homeschooled (now of course on holidays, but mostly at home). I know I receive a lot of graces everyday. The Lord always gives in abundance. But I’m having a difficulty in remembering about God at all times, like in the book by Brother Lawrence „The Practice of God’s Presence”, I think that was the title.
Why is it so important? Because I know that if before I get irritated by something I call upon God, He always immediately helps to calm me down. But if I am more… me (I hope you get it), then my fallen nature too often reveals itself, maybe in an unkind word to a child, or a husband, or just an angry thought.
It’s always easier, incomparably easier, to keep my cool, to stay in the peace of the Lord for much longer, right after the confession and the Eucharist. Once even for two long days. Nothing seemed to bother me, I was all peace and quiet joy and on fire for the Lord. I guess that’s the answer, as well. But I can’t go to daily Mass at the moment, so this will have to wait, and I’ll just intensify my prayer life.
God bless anyone who reads it.
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